Walking alone

I grew up being an advisor to kids my age, and even older people. Over the years there have been people who have sworn undying loyalty to me while I walked them through difficult times in their lives, but for no apparent reason they just stopped calling. My feelings almost got hurt, but the Lord ministered to me and told me that most relationships are for a season. He showed me the impact that I made on the lives of others and he said, “do it unto me. I see you.” So, I’ve learned not to expect people to reciprocate. Many of them are not equipped to do so. I have learned that if I don’t have expectations, I can’t be disappointed. However, sometimes letting go still hurts a little

I’m excited about the new season that I am entering. However, today I feel the ache in my heart about all of the things and people that I have to let go. In this season, I’m not fighting to keep anything. It’s all just “stuff” to me. Stuff that I’ve had before and stuff that I can get again. This attitude kind of appears like I don’t place much value in anything or anyone, and it might even sound a little cold. Of course, I value friends and relationships, but let’s face it. They come and they go too.

I’m nearly a half century old and, looking back, I can see a pattern. That’s growth because I used to see a cycle. There is a difference. A cycle is a circle. A circle of events that reoccur over and over and over again in your life. A pattern is more like a blueprint or map of events that may take on a different cast of people or location or even circumstance, but the principle remains consistent.

I envision my life as a patterned quilt made up of all the lovely things that I am, that I experience and that I treasure. The old pieces that mar the pattern are slowly being replaced by brighter pictures that complement the pattern. I thank God for the uniqueness of every piece and the replacement of the old pieces that are no longer relevant. And I also thank God that in the midst of this great pattern of my life that I still stand out – even if I do look a little odd – at least I’m not the same as everything and everybody else. It’s just a reminder that I have been set apart by God for His purpose.

The Prophetic Scribe

3 comments for “Walking alone

  1. Apostle K. L. Fairbanks
    August 9, 2011 at 1:59 am

    >The time will come when people will run to hear what the spirit of the Lord is saying. It is a time for preparation and training. This word will maintain it's revelence and save many. But God sought to save more. Luke 19:42-44 as Jesus wept over Jerusalem he wepts today over an unprepared people.

  2. Li_Lilac
    October 27, 2011 at 2:35 pm

    I am only 22yrs old and am currently in a prophecy development class and I just learned that God wants me to be His "scribe". I don't have much knowledge of prophecy and I'm not sure what a present-day scribe would look like. All the scripture references to scribes seems to be negative (at least, all the ones in the New Testament.) I am excited about viewing your blog and would like to keep in touch with you. I've opted to have any follow-up comments sent to my google e-mail address. Pray about connecting with me and then get back to me if it is indeed the Lord's will. Thank you.

  3. Chalia
    October 27, 2011 at 2:40 pm

    this is Li_Lilac again. I just wanted to leave a link to my blog and my real name on your page. Thanks again, and I'm hoping the Lord will connect us! Amen

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